Oh, Baby.

In the past 5 months I've been doing a lot of discovering about myself and the kind of person that i want to be in life. I still have no idea what I want to do in terms of a career, if there's even such a thing anymore.

I've been doing a lot of reading and just as much listening; even if it's some advice that I didn't want and didn't nessecarily need. There is no end to advice when you're pregnant, wheather you want it or not. Someones always got something to say. Not that I don't appreciate most of the advice that's been given to me, because I do.. and I would probably be lost without it.

I'm kind of a bigger person. I stand at 5"9 and weighed around 190 lbs before I was pregnant. And for the past 5 months the only thing telling me that I was pregnant was occasional morning sickness, and no peroid. and of course the sonograms. I didn't feel my baby even a little bit untill just recently. I had my ultrasound last week and when i saw her little image on the screen part of me was floored. "that's really in me?... where?" as I looked down at my belly I couldn't really picture something the size of one of those really huuge tomato's and the length of a carrot actualy taking residence in my belly. i guess bigger girls don't feel it for longer than tinier girls would. im 21 weeks... over halfway done the whole pregnancy thing and still sometimes I dont feel like my body's changed much.

So now I'm starting to feel my little girl move around in me.. but still it's such a small feeling, and most times I can't even feel her at all. My fiance and I were laying in bed the other morning and hesaid that he felt her kick him.."are you sure?" I asked, because I can't feel anything at all.. oh well at least one of us can feel her.
I bought a whole bunch of Born Free glass bottles a few days ago.. they're BPA free and have a special air filter in the lid to make it so that only milk passes through to the nipple and no air, which is apparently a great cause for colic in babies. What baby wants to have gas?