Little Princess

I wrote this tonight... july 17th 2010

For my unborn daughter Araija im 32 weeks and 3 days pregnant. only 7.5 weeks left till my due date!
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Little Princess


All my dreams and visions I had of the world
are so much different now
from when I was a little girl

I always wanted to be the princess
that sat on her throne
awaiting my prince so I wouldn't be alone

I finally got my prince who rescued me
and I'm still not a princess
but I'm having his baby

A little princess inside of me grows
things have turned out so differently
who would have known

A love for someone so intimate and true
it's confusing to think
but I might have always loved you

Little princess, you've changed me so much
as long as you promise always to smile
I think I can forgive you for all the streach marks and such

I've been eagerly counting
the weeks up to 40
for the most life changing experience that will befall me

To hold you hand and to kiss your little nose
I love you little princess
more than you'll ever know.

babbby babby

Well im 25 weeks 6 days? or is it 26 weeks pregnant now. it's so hard to keep track. I know it's been a while since I posted anything but I'm trying to remedy that.

Im starting to feel my little girl more and more.. she's still much quieter then all of my other friends (who are pregnant) babies. Sometimes it worries me because I wont feel her move for couple days. but I have to keep telling myself that she has a sleeping pattern like her daddy: awake for a couple days, sleep for a couple days.

For the baby shower I've decided just to do a nice back yard thing on Sunday July 4th. Nothing fancy. I'm making the cake on my own , it's going to be a banana sour cream cake, shaped and colored like a lady bug <>

Oh, Baby.

In the past 5 months I've been doing a lot of discovering about myself and the kind of person that i want to be in life. I still have no idea what I want to do in terms of a career, if there's even such a thing anymore.

I've been doing a lot of reading and just as much listening; even if it's some advice that I didn't want and didn't nessecarily need. There is no end to advice when you're pregnant, wheather you want it or not. Someones always got something to say. Not that I don't appreciate most of the advice that's been given to me, because I do.. and I would probably be lost without it.

I'm kind of a bigger person. I stand at 5"9 and weighed around 190 lbs before I was pregnant. And for the past 5 months the only thing telling me that I was pregnant was occasional morning sickness, and no peroid. and of course the sonograms. I didn't feel my baby even a little bit untill just recently. I had my ultrasound last week and when i saw her little image on the screen part of me was floored. "that's really in me?... where?" as I looked down at my belly I couldn't really picture something the size of one of those really huuge tomato's and the length of a carrot actualy taking residence in my belly. i guess bigger girls don't feel it for longer than tinier girls would. im 21 weeks... over halfway done the whole pregnancy thing and still sometimes I dont feel like my body's changed much.

So now I'm starting to feel my little girl move around in me.. but still it's such a small feeling, and most times I can't even feel her at all. My fiance and I were laying in bed the other morning and hesaid that he felt her kick him.."are you sure?" I asked, because I can't feel anything at all.. oh well at least one of us can feel her.
I bought a whole bunch of Born Free glass bottles a few days ago.. they're BPA free and have a special air filter in the lid to make it so that only milk passes through to the nipple and no air, which is apparently a great cause for colic in babies. What baby wants to have gas?